Matt has been on a really intensive rotation this month: pediatric surgery. The hours are looong, his days are busy, and he has 2 thirty-hour shifts every week, with only one day off each week. I would imagine he is working around 90 hour weeks and is studying on top of that. We really miss him around here. It's also really easy for me to get mopey and whiny and eat a lot of cookies (don't you do that when you are depressed???).
And then one evening after work Matt and I have this conversation:
Matt: How was your day?
Me: Long, we missed you so much. I am so ready to see you. Ads and I had fun though, we...yada, yada, yada. But still, when is this rotation going to be over? Its not fair that we don't get to see you very often (followed by more complaining)...
...anyway, how was your day?
Matt: Long, we had a car wreck with three kids that were badly injured. And we lost a little baby that was born at 27 weeks gestation.
Oh.
Thank you, Lord, that my little one is sleeping safely in her crib. Thank you that my husband is at the hospital because he is being your hands and feet, not because he is sick or injured.
It is easy to read blogs or talk to friends and think that their life must be easy while yours is hard. But everyone has the easy, and everyone has the hard.
Right now, for us, for me, being a parent, a mom, is pretty easy. Spending time with Addie energizes me, encourages me, blesses me. I know it won't always be so easy. But I am thankful for now.
Right now, for us, for me (&for Matt), Matt's career is really hard. I also know, it won't always be this hard. But I am thankful for this too...it is teaching us, refining us.
With the hard parts of life, it is tempting to lose perspective. But the Lord calls us to look up. Up over our circumstances, up over whatever may be hard, up to Him. And to rest...knowing He has a purpose. To be content in His path for us. To remember that their are those that need your prayers. To be thankful for the blessings He has given us. And, at least for me, to try to have a little perspective...